The philosophy of change (Preface)
Ella was leaving her country. She hopes for good. She found her life’s mate and for her that was enough to start from the beginning. She is divorced, has a 14 years old son, a 75 years old mother and a brother of 47 years. She is leaving all of them. Her son will stay with her ex husband (that was his decision) and she will carry that “bag of guilty” with her where ever she goes and until her son join her again (if ever).
She is leaving her wonderful friends and she knows that she will not find replacement for them. Some of them supported her and some of them were against that crazy step in the unknown. Some of them were selfish in their love for her and they were trying to stop her, to explain her…
“New start? Again? Are you not tired of new beginnings?” – ask her Godmother.
“Well, obviously I am not” she said a little bit angry, because she recognized that “no support” tone in her voice.
“You can not start a new life in 42!” said her brother later, who is five years older and living in a lousy marriage more than 20 years, totally unhappy and unsatisfied. But, he is staying in that box because of his children.
” I hope you will not regret one day” said her mother after him. She is always on the side of warning.
”And who will take care about me now?” – That was a selfish moment, what all old parents have. Another “bag of guilty”.
That was the “support” from her loved ones…
How nice, she was thinking.
Ella was following her dream. Of course that has a price (and those “bags of guilty”), but she didn’t give up. She was sure that you can’t start a new life only when you are dead. Everybody has a choice: Do you want to stay in a “little life” with huge fear of changes or… bite the bullet and change things in your self and around you. In 42 she has chose for the philosophy of change.
What was the price for following her dream? What she got and what she lost? Whether it was worth it? Or hurtful? What she found out on her path? Did she become a better person? What new attitudes she accepted?…
Be continued……
[...] for change, I want you to know: It’s never late for change, (like I said: You can not start a new life only when you are dead) especially if that change leads you to more successful, joyful, satisfying [...]
Hi Jasmin,
Your English is perfect dear! English is not my mother tounge also, so we are in the same sh..! 
Keep going… Ella
First, welcome to the club of clever women! Thank you for support. I give you my support to follow your dream! Don’t give up, because I never give up! It’s not easy, but “what doesn’t kill us, make us stronger”
Come on dear, don`t be a pu..y, I`m joking haha,
you are smart and brave woman, so go for it!
I give a quit and I`m prepairing for big new step, also,
cause I need to follow my dream… without that I not feel alive.
At the end sorry If my English is not so good but I`m learning.
See u and your blog. Be good.
Thank you Susan, for your nice words about the site, but the thing what I found more important is the support you gave me to follow my dream. I will keep you informed. Keep reading…:)
Ella
Nice site.
I think you are writing about yourself. Come on baby follow your dream because there are a lot of people dreaming and there are just a few who have the guts to follow it. In fact your friends and family are jealous because they never had the guts. And after a while everybody is going on, with or without you. Everything has consequents also following your dream. My experience is that following my dream was not the big step but to stand all comments of others. Go for it and keep me informed!